little bumps become big bumps.

today we take cohen to meet his pre k teacher. he starts pre k monday. im excited for him but really sad o see him go. Im finding it more and more diffcukt to deal with ken being out of a job. this was just suppose to be a little bump. not big one. but now were going on month three with nothing but unemployment andno end in sight. this weekend is stake conference and im singing inthe wemons chior. im excited casue im actully going to be bale to listen to the talks. thre wont be any kids ont the stage with me LOL. I need something to uplift me cause nothing seems to be working. we have had family home eveaning three weeks in a row. but thats nbot helping. famiy prayer, scriptur reading, even made to all three hours of church for a month. still feel down. im tryiong so hard to figure out whats making me feel so down. Im trying to keep my head up and smile and support my husband through this.but alli want to do is run away and hide till the rough par tis over. im tired of strugalling all the time. i wish we could just get on with pur lives. Anyway i hope sunday will shead some light on why i feel so yucky all the time. little update on the baby front. still not pregnent though im sure its for the best. still alittle baby crazy. but am coping rather well...