Baby feaver

Everyone i know is just finding out there preggers or are in the middle of there pregency or a small few are just having little ones. It makes me want another one. but it seems that its not in the cards for awhile. this is becasue of two reasons. 1. no money which isnt really an excusse since i belive that you shouldnt wait till you can affored a child (face it then you would never have kids) but its a whole nother situation when your family has no income at all. Yep ken still hasnt found a job. and 2. becasue of my health. Nothign serously is wrong with me but we are looking into a thyroid problem and i really need to louse some weight before we try for number. And of course there are so many other reasons. But i still feel like im not complete. I mean i have a great husband and two fantastic sons. both of which i adore. but im not complete. there are still children of mine in heaven waiting to recive a body. and are aching to be thought. COhen had a bad dream tonight me and ken were just about to turn out the light when he began to cry. so i went and got him and put himin bed with us and let him watch caiule which im sure i mispelled. But anyway he kept givign the cat kisses then he would cuddle up with me then daddy then back to the cat. I just put him back in bed an figures i would wait to make sure he was ok. Children are such precisous gifts from heavely father. They ARE the secreat to life